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[Feb. 8th, 2007|06:59 pm] |
| Your Scholastic Strength Is Inspiring Others | 
You are great at developing a vision, and getting others to adopt your way of thinking.
You are talented at leading, balancing tasks, and helping people work together.
You should major in:
Counseling
Environmental studies
Law
Social work
Political science
Nursing |
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[Feb. 5th, 2007|03:32 pm] |
月桂女神 by S.H.E.
词:方文山 曲:李天龙
传说漫长 浩瀚如史诗般
记载这段 惶惶不安
颜色金黄 阿波罗的光芒
却比不上 达芙妮的勇敢
没有一种爱可以
在自由之上
达芙妮的伤 化身
月桂树 倔强
月桂树飘香
那夜风恋月光
我的爱 很不一样
素净的脸上
从不抹浓妆
坚持 自己喜欢
月桂树飘香
云缠绕星光
我要 有话就讲
无边的海洋
那辽阔的想像
比谁 都不平凡
森林河畔 阿波罗在追赶
哭着戴上 达芙妮的桂冠
被束缚的爱 已经
没有了 温暖
达芙妮的伤 心疼
千年间流传
爱摇晃 爱靠岸
我航向了前方 寻找桂冠
My favourite song currently. |
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[Feb. 5th, 2007|12:43 pm] |
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I read from somewhere... "Falling in love is inevitable. Love happens only after you have fell out of love."
I can't remember where man. lol |
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[Feb. 3rd, 2007|08:30 pm] |
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She would sit down and stare at her computer, perhaps turn on the music attempting to make the still and depressing atmosphere disappear then amidst all the noise, she would submerge herself in piles of work that were due soon and perhaps that would reduce the dull ache that throbbed in her lonely heart.
Abruptly, her handphone rang, exclaiming a new message had been received.
There was, however, no indication that she had heard the phone. Her attention remained unwavering at the screen though her mind was blank then she decided that she had enough and picked up her phone.
It was him.
They chatted in a few minutes before she thought that she wanted him to fuck off.
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[Jan. 31st, 2007|07:58 pm] |
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AHHHH
thank you Priscilla and Dad for sending me to school every morning this week! (:
ahhhh. I'm turning mad due to the huge amount of stress. I know I'm supposed to be doing
(1) Integrated Humanities Proposal
(2) Language Arts Proposal
BUT SHIT. I dont know what wrong's with me! No mood to study or do anything at all. bLEH. maybe later.
ON the other hand...
TODAY IS A HAPPY DAY! Because I've finally gotten above 50 for Chinese zuo wen. SUPERLLYY HAPPY! HAHAAHA! I was grinning to myself when I received the paper. hehe. WAHHAHA I'll jia you on my studies. wahaha
I was watching 'it started with a kiss'
AGAIN. lol.
I LOVE JOE CHENG! JOE CHENG IS MINE!
haha just kidding. =P ahhh. okay I shouldn't wish that he's mine since I've just finished a book which had a title that read "BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU WISH FOR" so I guess, no I won't wish that he's mine. haha
okay HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEEHIANG!
I don't know why but I suddenly like Joe Cheng again. lol but I prefer to call him JIANG ZHI SHU! AHHH! SO NICE NAME. HAHAAHA! okay. I can't decide between Vic Chou and Joe Cheng. hahaa xP wheeee~ I think I like both. hahaa xP
crap. go do work already. byebye (: |
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[Jan. 29th, 2007|05:57 pm] |
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ahhh crappy internet. ):
bleh
im supposed to studying but i guess taking a break wont kill yeah? (:
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[Jan. 19th, 2007|08:49 pm] |
AHHHH
C'DIV TOTALLY KICKED ASS TODAY!
and I mean ultra ass. lol like it was 5-0 and most of the scores were like 15-0, 11-0! wahhaa I'm so proud of my juniors!
haha had so much fun during training even though my legs were dying from the drills. I think I really need to do my leg exercises. It seem that my legs are getting heavier and heavier every training. `ashy frowns` haha whatever. During the tournament, Nicole and I were so 'talking' about a particular teacher. haha xP. wheee. Thank God she isn't teaching me this year. wheee (:
I TOTALLY LOVE ADVANCED LITERATURE!
haha Mr Low makes the lesson really interesting even though only a handful of us dominate the entire lesson with our stupid answers and questions including MINGMING who quoted, on the first lesson after Mr Low asked what is literature to us, "Literature is a WORD." -___________-
Talk about lack of vocabulary huh! lol and from then on, she just went on to answer vocabulary questions with that answers. I mean those that she doesn't know the answer to. haha xP
Liwen, Ruiqi and Nicola shared a cab back home, thanks to Ruiqi who took an awful time getting ready. We stood at the bus stop like dumb idiots for like 30 over minutes according to Alina's watch and finally Liwen agreed to my suggestion to hail a freakin cab cause it seemed like the 154 isn't coming.
and Ruiqi hates 154 drivers now. lol
Anyway, it was super funny on the cab but Ruiqi kept pinching me; Liwen kept crapping and Nicola kept laughing. -______-
I was the ONLY normal one there! =D
wahaha! if you believe me.
i like Cao Jing Hua Lao Shi! She's super interesting! I mean I love it when she uses stories to illustrate her points like she's the GREAT storyteller of all time! And she teaches well too! haha xP I believe my Chinese will improve with her aid! WHEEE!
hahaha
and alina needs to pee. LOL
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[Jan. 18th, 2007|10:38 pm] |
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I'M SO HAPPY!
HAHA can't put it in colours and bigger font because my mouse isn't with me. hehe! =D
I would like to thank...
Mum, Dad, JieJie, Francis, Issac, Adriel, Changzhong, Alina, Eeyang, Beehiang, Yuanyi, Mingming, Yuan mei, Jun xian, Ryan, Jasmine, Grace, Ong Kok Meng, Enrui, Lili, Nicole, Juilet, Zhi Jie, Teng Hui, Xue Ting, Linus, Elaine, Min Hao, Jing Yan, Carrie, Jia wen, Sara, Jemima, Sherman, Priscilla, Becky, Shu wen and all the family friends!
haha
310 FOR SINGING HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
E409 FOR CELEBRATING MY BIRTHDAY WITH ME
FRANCIS for the special homemade cake. I was seriously touched. LOL
EEYANG for the unexpected present.
JIEJIE for the lovely cow that looks like her.
CHANGZHONG for being the first to sms me.
TENGHUI for the lovely email!
MUMMY AND DADDY for the pigs! haha xP
I FEEL SO LOVED.
I FEEL LOVINGLY LOVED!
HAHAHAH (:
and I guess that's what's most important. (: |
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[Jan. 5th, 2007|09:44 pm] |
After a talk with her, I really felt very touched.
NYBT SEC 3 '07, THANK YOU FOR NOT GIVING UP ON ME!
=D
One of my new year resolutions is to really make it a point to go for trainings and train hard even if ultimately I don't get to play for the team, at least... I'll be ready if Mr Wee decides to call me!
JIA YOU NYBT B'DIV AND C'DIV!
ahhhh! lol can you believe that a year has passed again? haha and guess what... competition starts on my birthday! haha so coincidental!
to NYBT SEC3'07, alina, beehiang, eeyang, lili, nicole, yuanyi and mingming
I dont know how to express my gratitude to you guys but thank you so much that you guys still regard me as a teammate despite my poor attendance last year and my attitude. Sorry for all the trouble but thank you for everything! And I'm sorry for making you guys miss class that last time you guys talked to me. haha especially beehiang who got punished! haha thank you! <333
THANK YOU!
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[Dec. 27th, 2006|12:39 am] |
Things to do before holidays end.
1) fix my wireless connection
2) fix my printer
3) do commonwealth essay
4) do maths worksheet
in other words, I'm quite messed up. |
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[Dec. 15th, 2006|10:39 pm] |
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ahhh LET'S WASTE TIME CHASING CARS!
LOL okay I admit I'm quite late but whatever.
(:
Things I desire most now:
1. To have an ambition, to have a great desire to have a certain job in the future
2. My mummy to be healed.
3. My spiritual life to come back.
4. Just for everyone to be happy
5. Be happy and look on the bright side.
6. Stop anticipating for something horrible that will come my way.
Anyway... since this blog's title is "Things I'll Never Say", I shall reveal something I've always thought about but never thought that it was important enough to share it with others.
Well... recently I watched a show about some girl who at first had everything going on for her until she starts feeling that life is bored and eventually ends up with HIV.
Okay... okay... I know it's kinda weird why I suddenly mention this and maybe you might even be thinking "Ashleen and one of her korean drama serials again."
Firstly, it's not even korean, it was japanese, which might just explain why I've been using some really basic japanese these days but whatever. haha okay, I don't understand why I keep sidetracking but I'll stop sidetracking now. okay, anyway back to the point... and I was just sitting there thinking...
What major crisis will I ever face in life?
I know that life isn't a bed of roses and people do go through trials and tribulations, but you know, looking back, I've always been so blessed by everything.
I mean... some people might have faced really major crisis like bankrupy, child abuse, rape, HIV, divorce, sexual harassment, major depression, got retrenched screwed up childhood, bullying in school... basically I define major crisis as something that threatens a person's survival and it's something really really BIG that you'll never forget it. And I don't think I've ever had any major crisis in my life before. And even if I did, they don't really affect me in that extreme way you know? =D and maybe you might be just thinking... "Then ashleen, you are just so blessed by God."
Then it gets me thinking even more... okay I admit I think a lot.
Yes, I'm blessed by God, so lucky... you might say if you happen to be an atheist or some other religion, but... I believe that major crisis will come whether I want to or not, but I don't know... I can't help but anticipate for it to come and I'm not just scared but awfully terrified that the crisis might be something that would cause me major heart pain and... I don't know... will take a lot of time to get over it?
I just keep thinking that what if something bad just happens to me, or worst... to people surrounding me? And from every little thing, every little illness, I'm scared to death that it might just cause something major that will eventually lead a person to death. Yes, I know I think too much, but....
I'm just scared that everything awesome thing that is going on in my life will just fade away with that major crisis.
What if the major crisis just crashed into my life and I failed to prepare myself for it to happen?
I mean... yes, I'm thinking about this sort of things but I'm not prepared.
I anticipate them but I dont know what I'll do if it just abruptly announce its arrival.
will I cry?
will I fail to get up again?
will I lose something precious?
what if everything I prayed against came to past?
what if one day my world just fall apart?
OH MY GOSH. why am i thinking like that?
haha okay wait. I know I do sound extremely emo but I guess it's just one of these random thoughts that flashed across my head these days.
I know there's a solution.
to pray about it.
how I wish I could trust God more.
I LOVE ALL OF YOU GUYS... unless I said I disliked you. heh.
Tired! but I'll still smile! SISTERS. TWO FINGERS!
THE UGLY, FUGLY US!
The HIPPO says HI
I'LL LOVE YOU GUYS IN THE END. HAHAHA! |
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[Dec. 14th, 2006|11:36 pm] |
I ought to be sleeping right now since I have training tomorrow but I promise myself that I have to blog tonight. haha
Melbourne was cool but I was kinda bothered about buying souvenirs for everyone; worried whether they would accept my presents and whether they'll like it but anyway,
I'M BACK IN SINGAPORE!
haha it has been raining these few days and I don't know.
there's training tomorrow and I've been worrying about it for a long long time.
and it's been bugging me while in Melbourne. and as I was showering today, I suddenly thought of confronting someone but I'm not sure whether I should or I shouldn't. She is someone I find really nice but after what I heard about what she said about me, I'm a little confused.
Is a person still nice if she is nice in front of you but behind your back, she says bad things about you?
perhaps you might say she isn't but she's just sooo nice to me. I don't know.
I'm sad though. I heard she called me a bitch and like kinda say really bad things about me.
oh well.
hahaha we had to rehearse our drama today and what can I say?
haha nothing. cos most of the time I get interrupted and even my sister can see that. This thing is just not working out. I mean they planned everything out already so they werent that open to suggestions. I was kinda disappointed but what to do? I feel like just missing the whole drama thingy altogether. It's just that I'm too tired to lose my temper and I know my glaring eye is really scary so I tried to control it. however much I can.
on the bright side. haha my para para dance skills has improved! haha especially with ultra high-heels song - according to my sister. haha
I guess after going to australia, I've changed quite a bit? like I became more daring to do what I want and what I like. haha and so has my sister man. it's like 180 degrees change. It's like I never knew my sister can be so nice. haha. I know she reads my blog but yeahh. it's like.. woah. when I did some stuff today, I was so expecting her to get pissed, not that I did it delibrately but yeah. and she soo didn't get pissed. it was like miraculous! I was really really expecting her to get pissed. but yeah. haha
okay so it's like... so late now. so I'm going to sleep. nights. haha |
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[Dec. 10th, 2006|06:55 pm] |
ahh
blogging from melbourne.
i feel like coming over to study when i finish sec four man. haha
but i highly doubt i will. dont know why. probably cos singapore provides a higher standard of education. blah blah.
okay watching church service now. blog later. |
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[Nov. 17th, 2006|11:01 pm] |
had training then played golf after that.
Im currently watching "it started with a kiss". It's super sweet but then some parts are just so redundant. Getting a bit sick of watching it, unless something good is going to come soon.
bleh. the girl is super desperate for the guy and seriously... her attitude disgusts me. I mean, yes, it's a show but still... perhaps it might seem like a joy for some people that they can be that lovesick but honestly, I feel that it's quite sickening. I mean...
why on earth is she that desperate?
why can't people think that if the person is meant for them, in the end, they'll come together?
I mean... yes, you have to fight for what is yours but still... love takes time and patience.
and why can't the fricking guy just admit his feelings for her?
it's so bloody obvious.
crap. if this happens in my love life, I'll just fade and die off or something.
and why the crap am I getting so agitated over a taiwanese drama serial?
ahhhh I'm seriously bored to nuts I think.
why on earth is she so persistent anyway?
I know that in the end she gets the guy when she plays a little harder to get, so it sets me thinking if she was hard to get in the beginning minus the love letter part, won't it be all right?
I dont know why she doesn't know that people don't actually cherish the things around them until it's too late.
so why can't she realize that maybe if she's gone or not so always available, her love life wont be that er. tedious?
argh.
I dont know why but I've always believed that guys should be chasing the girls, not the other way round.
crap. maybe I'm too old-fashioned. who cares anyways.
and as I watch the show, it's like. oh my gah. opposites attract?
the girl is everything the guy doesn't want.
and I'm a little scared.
what if my future mate is everything I dont want.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
that'll be extremely scary and freak the heck out of me.
okay.
honestly.
I need to stay in touch with reality.
this is just a freakin show.
a taiwanese DRAMA.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
I once read someone's something but whatever yah.
it said.
she/he was everything I never knew that I ever wanted.
OMG.
that is so freaky.
okay
I've gotta log off and stop thinking about all this because Ive got to wake up early in the morning tomorrow.
okay adios everyone.
omg.
so scary.
okay shut up ashleen
shut up.
=D
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[Nov. 12th, 2006|12:27 am] |
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on the car on the way home from marina square, my mum and i were talking about the state of my face:
mum: "your face ahh. you used to have so much better skin."
me: "aiyah, i took my face for granted."
at home, inside the bathroom.
mum (from kitchen): are you going to bathe?
me: maybe?
mum: you already so dirty, still dont bathe. why dont you take care of your skin for your future.
As I was bathing, I was suddenly struck by what I used to think!
haha! this is childish thinking but whatever.
okay. I used to think...
because looks shouldn't matter in a relationship or friendship, the other shouldn't care what you look like. So maybe if I become an ugly duckling, then maybe those who stick around, are those who truly are my friends and future boyfriends. hahaha~
okay. but I guess sometimes, the world is superficial. and looks do count.
today I was at cbase and I saw the advertisement for senior associate and junior associate and one of the requirements was...
pleasant looking.
so who says looks don't count?
but I guess if you weren't born with ideal looks, I guess, you can always take care of yourself better? make yourself more presentable in some sense. haha I'm sure you can be average looking and pleasant looking. haha xP |
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[Nov. 9th, 2006|01:23 am] |
A - Damn good kisser.
B - Good all around person.
C - You're wild & crazy.
D - You have one of the best personalities ever.
E - You have a nice ass.
F - People totally adore you.
G - You never let people tell you what to do.
H - You have a very good personality and looks.
I - You get hyper easily.
J - Everyone loves you.
K - You like to try new things.
L - You live to have fun.
M - Success comes easily to you.
N - You are absolutely beautiful.
O - You're an awesome person.
P - You are popular with all types of people.
Q - You are a hypocrite.
R - Sexy!
S - Easy to fall in love with.
T - You're loyal to those you love.
U - You really like to chill.
V - You are not judgemental.
W - You are very broad minded.
X - You never let people tell you what to do.
Y - One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for.
Z - You're a little too hard to find.
A - Damn good kisser.
S - Easy to fall in love with.
H - You have a very good personality and looks.
L - You live to have fun.
E - You have a nice ass.
E - You have a nice ass.
N - You are absolutely beautiful.
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[Nov. 8th, 2006|03:30 pm] |
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haha crap. my right thumb hurts like shit. the stupid blister. crap. lol
whatever. haha
ARGH. the doctor bluff me. I could have just used the lactic acid and some other acid to take away my warts without going through surgery and like it's still bleeding when there is some friction = I can't walk with covered shoes. It really sucks. ahhh I wanna train. =D
ahh I think I drank too much teh si bing everyday. have been having so much trouble sleeping at night. Keep turning around and moving.
Just played golf recently. I found out I can still swing, even though I still miss like quite a lot and have every risk of dropping down from the driving range due to my slippery slippers. haha xP but yeah I still can somewhat hit. hahaha
This year is like crap honestly. hahha if I look from a pessimistic point of view. i dont know who to trust anymore, I mean for friends in nanyang because some people just go behind your back and start bitching and honestly, I'm really sick and tired of all this crappy bitching stuff and sick of hearing shit. but yeahh, I guess life's like that. heh. just like the avril's song. hahaha
speaking of avril, saw timothy's father recently. I didn't know my dad knew him. hahaha
okay. from the optimistic point of view, I've learn more about people and about myself. and yeahh. =D I'm not saying that we shouldn't trust anyone, but I'm sure there's bound to be someone you can trust, just for my case, not in school. I don't know whether as a person is telling me about someone else, is she saying this to that someone else about me too. I dont know but I guess I should be more selective about my friends? hahah and chose wisely who to mix with and who not to. haha thank goodness God has given me a strong support system of good parents, good cell group, good church as well as good friends outside school.
I think my resolution for next year is to stop talking bad stuff about people. haha
I wish we could all live in a non-bitchy world.
hahaha
on the happy note, I am promoted to sec three and got my subject combination. haha wheeee~
dahdah. (:
I LOVE GRACE WU and don't believe what she says on her blog though. haha!
SHE'S MY BEST FRIEND HAHAHA!
my mum says grace is crazy and cute though. haha xP
hmm. the standard of the beef hor fun at my mum's office deproved though. Last time, it tasted better; a lot better. wheee.
oh oh oh. I got a new phone. hahaha the previous one dropped into the toilet bowl, dont ask me how. haha xP
IT'S A SECRET.
I think in life, you lose some, you win some.
It's impossible that all the odds are against you.
It's more of... whether you chose to look beyond the odds and focus on the positive side.
Life isn't just about shit and crap.
It's more than just that.
But it's all up to you to chose.
and I lost friends but I definitely gain friends too.
if someone choses to bitch about me
then it's up to them.
at least I have real friends.
(:
my warm LOVE and HUGS to
GRACE WU - for so much fun, laughter, peace and joy.
FOO ENRUI - for teaching me so much about life.
ADRIEL CHOY - for cheering me up and being a good listener.
JASMINE KON - for being there when I need you the most.
CARRIE - for being a great friend as well as cell group leader to me.
PHOEBE - for being a great friend and listening to my problems.
ZHUANG CHANGZHONG - for accepting me all over again.
PRISCILLA CHAO - for listening to me and being so nice to me.
RYAN SEAH - for never failing to make me laugh and have a good time
FUQUAN HUANG - for being there to talk about things
ELAINE - for being a constant encouragement to me
ZIYANG - for being a great friend to bully
LOVELY TEAMMATES - never giving up on me
E409 - the BEST CELL IN THE WORLD
E302 - teaching me so much!
CHC - for giving me so much!
MY PARENTS - for encouraging me constantly as well as supporting me!
ASHLEY ELIZABETH NGION - for advising me and talking crap to me
GOD! JESUS! HOLY SPIRIT! - I've the best daddy in the world! My daddy is bigger than yours :P
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